Life is in trouble!

Wow! It's been quiet long that i never visited my blog....A lot of stories to tell and a lot of experiences to share. Some are good and most of them are bad :(..but that's life..

Sometime month of march i went out with friends to disco in Calbayog to a farewell party of one of my friend and now he's in Dubai His name is Onyll. Then i had a body painting end of march for my product shoot and concept. Then mid April another invitation of my friend name Pearly to a night swimming for her farewell party going to New York. After a week i went to Cebu to meet my batchmates and vacation as well for a week..All my plans were not really in planned all were surprise decision;.. (which in some other way it looks like wrong because everybody were caught by surprised) ...Anyway, I really had a good time there with my batchmates after several years, at last i saw them..Then i went back to Calbayog!

When i came back to Calbayog a lot of stories came out which is unbelievable!..First when i had my bodypainting..one of my neighbor brought up the story and my in- laws were informed but not in details then follow the disco thing and etc..The body painting was part of my business promotions.but the story was, i went bodypainting just to make flirt with other people. After that i received txt messages below the belt. On the other hand i realized that there was a mistake on my part as i did not informed my hubby in the first place and my in-laws about this concept,as we know that our culture in the Philippines specially in the province are conservative. They're not used to this activities specially if you are a married person.

The Disco thing was an invitation to a farewell party which i was a bit drunk and after that we decided to continue it on the beach. I called my hubby's friend to pick us up because the motorcycle broke down, so after a few minutes, the motorcylce worked again and we went straight to Bagacay Beach..My hubby's friend wondered we were no longer in the disco house,so he made a call and when he knew that we were on the beach he followed us because he was concerned that we were already drunk. When he saw us he decided to send me home. Someone saw us riding in a motorbike at that time around 2am. That made the story more complicated because what they were thinking was there's something wrong going on between my hubby's friend and me. I felt guilty about my hubby's friend because he did nothing wrong but just to send me home. I was also concerned about his family because they are also well-known in Calbayog City.

There was another story regarding being so "drunk", my friends went to my place and we had a barbeque get together and we drink alcohol which brought me "down" and made me slept near our door. It was my maid who discovered me lying on the floor,she wondered because it was so quiet and she looks for me. Funny thing :) that made the story complicated again huh! sigh!
(Feels like I'm still single... wheeeew!)

The story of my Cebu trip went wrong also..Again, i did not informed my hubby early of my trip. Again, they were caught by surprise of my decisions. I brought along my son on that trip.
When i went home the story was different. According to gossips i went there to continue the bikini pictorial and attend to a bikini open in Cebu. Huh????? that adds to the issues that has been going on. That almost broke my family!!!That's why i abruptly decided to leave the place with my kids and planned to go to KL to work. But things changed and get worse when i and my hubby had to discuss all of these issues. After a looooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnng discussion with him, i changed my decision to fly to KL but fly to Singapore instead. We were able to patch up part of the issues but not to my in-laws yet.

After that conversation, i came to realize that on my part, i also had a mistake and i'll try my best to change my attitudes towards other peoples' suggestions. There is this attitude of mine sometimes that i look it as a destructive criticism instead of constructive and there are times that i don't think of the consequences regarding of what i do and decide to do.

Anyway, I am still hoping to make all this things get done soon because i am concerned about my kids and family. I don't want a chaotic married life.

Still i received a text messages from my in-laws regarding the activities i did last time..i just ignored it because i knew they were really,really mad of what i did. They were accusing me that i am pregnant of another man,i met my other man in cebu,and they text me that they are doubltful of my son Joshua it seems it's not the son of my husband!!!! This messages strike me the most that makes my nerve shaken. I was really furious of what they accused me and i want them to show me thier evidence but they're not answering my questions who the hell told them about those gossips? Now, i dare them to go my son for a DNA test because of their doubts!
The war still going on!

What do you think of my activities these past few months? Is it worth it? or was it wrong in some other way?